possible Beckinsale replacement

I should probably not have a crush on a married woman... so here is my second pick.

Music and Such

I love listening to the violin and watching it being played.

I would like to make sweet music with a violinist.

That's all I'm saying...

American Idol

I really do not like American Idol... for many reasons.

Especially since my only reason to watch the show is gone:



Yes, yes... I know she is married.. no worries. I am not going there. She was just such a cute girl to watch.




I think the person I am going to end up spendng my life with will be similar to her.

Is that a weird thing to say? Oh well... haha

Time Off

I am really thankful for this time off... from school, from friends, from a relationship. I am finally enjoying the person I have become... or rather am becoming.

Time away from people has really been good for me. It is really put life in perspective. I have finally resolved that I have no clue what I am going to be doing the rest of my life... and I dont know that I ever will know the answer to that question. I am no longer planning my life out.

I am starting with the basics, and just working from there every day.

My basics:
My family means the world to me, and they deserve to be treated as such.
I am working on becoming a more efficient person, but a life partner would really do me some good... and I am sure make me more effective in life.
I am progress oriented... no matter what I do today, it should be productive, in some way.
I look forward to having a family some day... but until that day, it is best for me to form myself into the kind of person that my children would be proud of.
I enjoy teaching as much as I enjoy learning.
At the end of the day, my life is a journey... and along that road, there will be people for me to help, a family for me to raise, and a life for me to live. All I expect from my life is that once I am gone, those who once shared my path would find their journey a little bit more enjoyable, and hopefully, their path a bit more directed towards loving God and loving others.


My life is simple. I live, I eat, I work, I laugh, I love, I learn, I teach.

There is a woman out there that I need, desperately. One day we will connect, and I have great expectancy of our life together. Until then, I am just soaking up life.

5 Reasons why I should be Iron Man

Reason #1

I am crazily interested in the same technologies implemented by Tony Stark in the Iron man suit... mainly the capacity to fly, and the entire visual computer interface.





Reason #2

I have long since had a fascination with having my own tech/car garage... I dont know where it came from, but since I was a kid, I have always wanted a big garage/workshop. Tony Stark has one... and I believe I should as well.




Reason #3

Everyone knows that a person should always have a friend in the military... and that redheads have the capacity to be extremely attractive (if you can find one that doesnt want to kill you).




Reason #4

I am looking at changing vehicles... and next to a 335xi... if I had the money, I would get this car:





Reason #5

Everyone knows that I am a patriot... and this is by far the best way to do it. He is influential around all the right people, he has a crazy attractive woman who completely compliments him, he is wealthy, but uses his wealth for good, and he is wicked smart, but still funny and friendly.



The only question that remains is... how does one become Tony Stark esque... In all reality, it is completely possible. I am not saying I want to be a superhero... but I def. see advantages to operating in his lifestyle. Ah, decisions decisions...

If you havent, go see the movie. You wont regret it. :-)

Smallville

Ideal match, take 2

This is Kara from Smallville. She is Clark's cousin... haha. Yes, I am a Smallville fan... you can laugh later. Right now, just kick back and enjoy the beauty of supergirl.

"The One"

I believe it is almost necessary for me to believe in "the one"... simply because my vision of a happily ever after is held in such high esteem.

To clarify, I am not stating that I have this ideal image of a woman that I am looking for. Rather, I have this ideal image of our relationship, and that is what I am waiting for. At times, it seems that such idealism is foolish, especially in such a lost and confused world.

In addendum to my previous quote, perhaps I should add in a few words... that "no normal woman could possibly measure up". I suppose this does make me somewhat elitist in my desires, however, I do also believe that such elitism is my right. I am not looking for just a cute girl, or just a nice girl that I can make things work with. I am not looking for a relationship that is only 15% dysfunctional, or one that works "most of the time"... I have dated some really great girls in the past, and had some decent relationships.

However, that is not what I want to invest my life into. I have said before that my faith in "the one" seems to parallel my faith in God. Sure, given all the logic and evidence in this world, one could strongly contend (as many do), that God does not exist. Even many in the church do not believe in the same God that I do. However, there is just no possible way to convince me otherwise. When it comes to the God that I love, I just know, without need for any further confirmation than the resonance in my soul.

In the same way, when it comes to there being "the one", her existence simply resonates within me. Granted, when you take into consideration human choice, then a large factor of her being "the one" will be determined by us both choosing each other. To explain this, I offer Jeremiah 1:5 "Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, And before you were born I consecrated you; I have appointed you a prophet to the nations.” There is this idea in scripture, that while marriage and birth are the choice of man, the resulting person (and their purpose in life) is known by God even before their birth.... and then implanted in their soul as a strong desire. (the word desire can even be translated as "of or from the father")

In that light, while I am sure that man has chosen the location and appearance of this woman, I know also that God has already pre-ordained us to live a great life together. In the end, it will be our choice to live a life together, and our continual decision to stay together. However, I would be foolish to not also state that long before I even started thinking about girls (which was a while ago, lol), God already had us paired up... setting a resonance of Truth within our souls so that one day, we would know that it was time to be together.

That being said, I believe there is a woman out there that I will choose to spend my life with, to start a family with, and to enjoy this world with. This is also why I am not dating around right now, and why I believe in true love being possible at first sight (or maybe by the end of the first date, lol).

Otherwise, it seems like relationships are nothing but shopping at a thrift store... just trying to find something that comes close to fitting.

Music Video of the Day

Compliments of Wojciech... this song is now stuck in my head/ soul.

Plus, given my aforementioned disposition... it works, haha.

Internet Crush

I have an internet crush... it's true.

Fortunately for me, I am just a city boy, raised in south Detroit.

Now if I can just find that midnight train to anywhere.

:-)

Positive Note

So... several of those posts I just did seem a bit on the negative side... so here is something that I DO like...

She made me (a serial blond lover) like brunettes :-)

My Favorite Photo:





Video Montage:

Shallow Zac

Within the first few seconds of meeting a girl, I decided whether or not I am attracted to them... or will be attracted to them.... Does that make me shallow?

Dont get me wrong... physically attraction is by far not the only way that I sort through whether or not I would like to take a girl out... Eventually, personality, sense of humor, general disposition towards life, and such things take precedent... but at first, physical attraction takes precedence. And just so you know... I am not talking about comparing girls to some "ideal image of beauty". Rather, I am just talking about whether or not "I" am personally attracted to them.

Is that such a bad thing? or am I allowed to be a bit shallow at first?

Avril, my love

Because Avril rocks, and redheads deserve it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cQ25-glGRzI


(sorry, embedding was not allowed... stupid RCARecords)

Funny video of the day.

I found this video about a week ago, and thought you all might enjoy it. It is not like, crazy funny... but my sisters just went through the Prom fiasco, and I spend every day in high school now... so, it makes me chuckle.

Oh, and I really like this girls personality... so that is probably the real reason I am posting this. I like this video because it gives me Hope. :-)

Enjoy!

Anorexic Prom Queens

apparently my "ideal match"

For those of you who dont know... I am currently using eHarmony... yes, yes, enjoy your laughter... when you are done... continue reading.


Anywho, a strange observation I would like to make... I have taken the whole eHarmony personality test twice now... and I am noticing a strange pattern in the supposed "matches" that I am given. In all honesty, I am not sure what to say about it... so I am just going to throw some general trends out there that I have noticed, just various commonalities between myself and the 3-4 people a day eHarmony matches me with.

1) Almost all of my matches are in some way interested in Nursing... either they are a nurse, or they are wanting to be a nurse, or they are going to nursing school, or they want to be a medical missionary of sorts.

2) This next one is really strange... Another strange pattern I have noticed in my matches is that either they say that they want to have "lots" of kids, or they put "maybe" under the Want Kids category... it is really strange to me. It seems like my matches are all or nothing... Which really makes me think (especially as of late), who puts "maybe" in response to if they want kids. idk, I just find it strange...

3) Most of my matches I find in no way attractive... which has lead me to actually use physical appearance as a primary determining factor as to whether or not I initiate communication... It is horrible. I am really not a shallow guy, but many of these girls have similar personalities, and how much can you really know about a girl from two paragraphs of text... and so, alas, I am now shallow. haha.

4) Lastly... and I just find this amusing... I think it is hilarious that on eHarmony, you put your age and they also ask you how often you drink. The part I think is funny... is that the majority of my matches that are under 21, also state that they drink. idk, it is just funny to me...

Anywho, I want to know if my personality type just attracts nurses who maybe want to have kids... or if that is just the demographic of eHarmony. Ironically, I once dated a girl who wanted to be a nurse... and one of the reasons I knew we wouldnt work out was b/c she wanted to be a nurse, lol. Oh the ironies of life... In truth, it was more-so that I just wanted some-one who really challenged me, and she didnt really do that. Even more ironically, eHarmony actually suggested her as a match... HAHA! I am going to shut up now... lol.

Okay. My eHarmony subscription expires in a month... and thus far, I have only found ammusement. Hopefully this last month will be better than the last several months...