dreaming

I have a dream.

That I might actually be able to do what Jesus wants me to do.

I dream of living a life fuller than the one I have now, I dream of loving those in my life more than I do now. I dream of being a better friend to those God has trusted me with. I dream of one day being a good husband to a lovely wife. I dream of having lots of children who I can enstill my love, wisdom, and passion into. I dream of affecting this world more than I can do on my own. I dream of a day when the body of Christ will actually function as a body. I dream of greater things than I am even capiable of imagining. It is neccessary for me to dream these things because this is how God made me. I think this can happen, but only through God.

Seeking God is like running a really long race. At times, I have wondered off the path, only to be lost in the thicket. At time, I have camped out on the path, sitting down in my lawn chair to marvel in the beauty of the path. At times, I have become so excited that I ran this path, while at some times I did it because I was afraid. But alas, here I am once again, walking forward on my path towards doing the will of God in my life. It is not the destination that concerns me, but the journey. I thank God that I can enjoy this journey. On top of that, I thank God that I have people in my life that I can enjoy my journey with.

Life is long, hard, and complicated- there is no denying that. But to me, life is still overwhelmingly beautiful. There is really no great discovery of this post, but just to say that life is really beautiful right now, and that I am so glad that God has allowed me to see its beauty.

I dream of having a bigger family than I do now because, really, family is everything. I am excited about one day having a wife to love and having children to learn from. But until then, I will continue on my path, appreciating God in everything around me. And someday, perhaps, I will get to walk next to others and watch their eyes light up just as mine do every day.... That will be a beautiful day, as it will also be a beautiful life.

This is my dream. Let it be so (amen).